I have had some painful challenges come up for me in the last month-and I asked for them!!
I have been saying to God and Jesus:
I want to be of greater service and a real child of Light and a full expression of Love.
I have had three incidents over the last month in which someone has said they did not like something I did or said. And for someone like me, who is a people pleaser, it felt devastating to have someone tell me that they don’t like me!! It kept me up at night, and made me feel frightened and paranoid. I wanted to please them so much until they would say that I am a nice person and that they were no longer upset with me. But that didn’t happen.
Instead, I heard Lisa and Bill on their monthly group call talking about the Responsibility for Sight section of A Course in Miracles.
Responsibility For Sight goes like this:
I am responsible for what I see. I choose the feelings I experience. I decide upon the goals that I would achieve, and everything that seems to happen to me, I ask for, and I receive as I have asked.
In the past, the Responsibility for Sight section would send me into instant guilt and shame. I would say something to myself like
“A Course In Miracles is saying that you’re responsible for what you see, and you asked for all of these awful things to happen to you, so you are getting what you asked for and apparently what you deserve.”
And that kind of thinking separated me from Jesus and my own healing.
But, I realized this time, that what Jesus is saying in the Responsibility for Sight section is that I am getting the answer to my prayer to be the full expression of Love and Light. God is sending people and circumstances to me in order for me to have what I want: FREEDOM from FEAR!!
I have been getting one person after another telling me that they don’t like me so that I could begin to release the need for anyone outside of me to approve of me in order to feel worthy.
I AM responsible for what I see, and I DO choose the feelings I experience. I don’t have to go into self judgement. I can choose how I want to feel in response to other people and situations.
I had to learn that I can ask Jesus for help in all circumstances instead of going into self judgement.
I shifted my tone and conversation with Jesus. I was seeking Jesus’ approval just like I was seeking other people’s approval. I was a whiny miracle worker who was full of self doubt.
Now I talk with Jesus like I talk to a very wise and loving Friend-which is what Jesus is. I ask Him to look at the fearful upset thoughts with me and then I tell him I want him to get rid of them. I am more interested in serving Love than feeling scared.
I like to say: Jesus, you and I both know what I am here to do, and who I am, and in order for me to do and be what I am here to do and be, you have got to take that sad, doubtful, ashamed thought OUTTA HERE!! Then I say, “Thanks So Much!!” High Five!!
I no longer talk with Jesus as if He is better than me. I am responsible and I have the power to decide, and if Jesus is here to help me, well for Heaven’s sakes, lets do it!
I realize that this is what the Resurrection really is: It is the release of something that doesn’t work in favor of something that feels really good!!!
I know who I am and how to get the help I need to more fully express love and light. How much better could it be? Just knowing who I am is Heaven right now!
Resurrection, or re-birth, can be accomplished in under two minutes.
Take a couple of deep breathes and relax your shoulders. Think about what in your experience is coming to you in order to be released. This is your place to grow and to open to a healing.
Feel what is in this experience that is an answer to your request.
As you open to the experience, invite Jesus to stand with you and look with you, and just say, Hey, Jesus, you know why we are together-this _____ has got to go!! (Use your own words here)
And welcome to the Resurrection!!
WOOHOO!! You did it!!! Now KEEP DOING IT every time something comes up. Jesus is ready.
Question: What is your Resurrection experience? What are you letting go of in order to have what you really want? You can leave a comment by clicking here.
Thank you for being the Light of the world!!
Peace, love and blessings,